STRESSED

I am a totally stress case this week.

I have pretty much decided we need to hire a nanny. My daycare moved across town about 2 months ago, so now I have to drive two hours a day taking and picking the boys up from day care. Not to mention the amount of gas ($100 just this week). With the amount I pay in daycare itself it will be the same money and save me time. However, it scares me to death to trust someone alone with my kids all day everyday while I am not there. We will probably install cameras but that won't catch everything. I also LOVE my daycare. I love the girls who run it and the owner and Ean loves the kids and it is a wonderful environment for them. I don't want to deprive him of the social interaction but I know the one on one time is huge too. I am totally stressing about that.

Also, my secretary has been out on vacation all week. She doesn't do a huge amount of stuff, but she is here and answers the phones etc. Since Jim is gone too, (that's another thing) I have to time my trips to the bathroom and hope I don't miss a call or someone doesn't woder in while I am "indisposed". She will be back Monday, and then there are things her and I have to talk about because things are not being done how they should.

In a week we are having a huge Family Reunion at MY house for my dad's side of the family. About 30 people will be there and I still haven't planned all my food and shopping lists for it. And Jim hasn't been able to get the yard and the garage cleaned so it looks nice. Also, I need to get Tom's Grad. invites out, which I don't have all the addresses and such. Also, planning for his graduation party.

Jim had surgery on Tuesday (if you don't know why, you don't want to know why), and he has been off his feet all week. So that means mom/me gets the boys up, gets them fed and dressed and out the door with snacks and bottles put together and then picks them up and makes dinner and feeds the little one his dinner while trying to keep the big one out of trouble and then showers and/or baths them and gets them in bed. All of this while trying to give Jim the attention and things he needs and getting myself ready and unready. He is helping as he can and even made dinner last night.

Him being down, also has made me have to handle his side of the business. Fielding phone calls, problems, concerns, issues etc.

My workload is already heavy, with the business management stuff and the the loans I can barely do it all. Actually I can't do it all, but that is all I have to say about that until I can talk to my business partner.

DISCLAIMER- Everything I am stressed about, I have committed to do so if any of the above has to do with you, it is not personal AND I don't mind doing it. This is my BLOG and I can bitch and complain if I want and it is not about anyone but myself.

Anyway, If you have wondered why I have been so short with my psts that is why, my computer time is severely limited and I don't like that either.

UUUUUUUGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! Ok just had to get that out.